Yesterday, I received the news that a very dear friend has received a devastating diagnosis. For 10 weeks, she has carried a heavy heart as she has undergone tests only to learn that the news is not good. Here’s the thing that kicks you in the gut – she’s 23. Twenty-three. Twenty-three-years-old with a lifetime unlived. I’m speechless.
Oceans and continents divide us, but she is so dear to me that while time and space separate us, our connection is strong. Rock solid. I love her as if she were my own niece or even a daughter.
To say I’m devastated for her is an understatement. The journey ahead is a battle that no young person should have to fight. I don’t know what to say, how to comfort her. How do you comfort someone who’s received unimaginable news?
It’s times like this that faith is shaken. Faith in the universe, faith in God, faith in what is right. We are told that if we “believe”, it will be okay. All day I have struggled with the thought that if I pray hard enough, if I send only loving thoughts of healing out into the universe and chase away all the negative demons, it will be okay. But, these platitudes crash to the ground around me with a hollow thud.
To protect her privacy, I’m not publishing her name. But, she knows who she is. She knows how much I love her. She knows how I wish I could reach across the vast ocean that separates us and give her a hug, so that we could cry together.
She has a loving family with her and is surrounded by people who care for her; so she is not physically alone. But, the truth of the matter is that we are all “alone” in our individual journey, no matter what that journey is and even if we are surrounded by loving and caring family and friends, we have to fight the battle ourselves.
My darling Princess A: I have loved you all of your young life. The precious baby girl with the head full of curls, the young school girl who would bring me coffee in bed before she headed out the door to school, the teenager who wanted to return to her “roots” and seek out her past, the young adult who is so kind, loving, adventurous and strong.
With love and a heavy heart,