I can’t get this phrase out of my head…”do more of what makes you happy…”
A little back story:
After Princess Sweetie Pie was born, I was suffering from Postpartum Depression. This was unbeknownst to me until she was almost 2 years olds. Crazy, right? This is more common than I knew.
As it got closer to Princess Sweetie Pie’s fourth birthday I was reminded of the struggle Postpartum Depression had been for me until I got help. I was so fortunate to have a husband who recognized that I wasn’t “well” when I wasn’t even able to see it in myself.
Recently I’ve been reminded of this struggle. I JUST, as in JUST a week ago went off of my antidepressant medication that helped me get back to “normal” for the past two years.
The first week without my meds was awful. I was a wreck, I thought I was going to break.
I was scared. The past two weeks had me questioning whether going off of my happy pills was the best plan. Maybe I will need them forever. Maybe I can’t feel normal without meds. I want to be off the meds, I don’t want to be numbing myself and chemically altering my brain forever.
So how can I get through when I’m in such a funk?
“Do more of what makes you happy”. It runs through my mind again and again.
How do I manage to do things that make me happy when life is so crazy and time is so limited?
Ask for help!
What makes me happy?
There are a few things that instantly come to mind when I think of being happy…
- Read a good book: Submerging myself into a story so I can escape my story.
- Painting/doodling/creating: Getting my “art” on really helps my mind focus on just what I am creating, leaving me feeling happy and relaxed.
- Gardening: This is probably my favorite way to feel better when I’m in a funk. I’m outdoors, making my yard pretty and emersing myself in a task that connects me with nature. I always feel calm and clearheaded after I spend time in my yard.
- Writing: I have always loved writing. I started journaling when I was very young and find it very therapeutic. Part of why I love being a blogger is my love for writing!
A few days ago I started my day feeling down and I needed to find my happy.
First I painted a chair, then started to pull weeds and work on my yard, followed by a trip to the local nursery with Princess Sweetie Pie (which was actually her idea!).
We browsed the nursery and enjoyed the beautiful flowers and plants. Next, we picked out a couple of additions for our fairy garden. We came home and gardened together. With my Princess Sweetie Pie we found my “happy” even if only for a bit…
Now I can enjoy our garden creations and have happy memories when I’m not feeling happy.
I’ve spent this whole week focused on feeling good and doing more of what makes me happy. I went on a couple hikes, went to the beach, worked in my yard and got creative. This week has been better than the first week off of my antidepressants. I understand that this is going to be a journey, but I think I can do this.
Have you ever struggled with depression? What are some things that make you happy? I would love to hear about it in the comments!